Our way to Helena, three deer were bounding across the yellow meadow at full speed. I was too far back to get
Arron's attention to the show. The first came to the fence, jumping over it effortlessly, when I realized they were heading across the highway in front of us. The second leaped the fence when I saw the first reach the highway, and it looked as if it was on a collision course with Arron when a car overtook him. There was an explosion of their parts as the right front of the car slammed the right rear of the deer directly in front of Arron. The car came to a stop about 100 yards down the highway; the deer about 20 yards down the ditch. I pulled over to find the deer in throes of death, its front legs still trying to run, its head flailing and jaw grinding as it struggle with life's most difficult task. It seemed forever, and I couldn't stand to watch it suffer so I retrieved my knife from my bicycle seat pack in a desperate effort to do something where nothing could be done. I returned to the beast as I watched its last labored breaths, some trembling, and then it rested.


Death is the second purpose for highways. They are where the lifeblood of this nation flows as we scurry through our day-to-day. On a bicycle it is a thought that rides in the back of our minds as we deny feeling its breath from passing trucks down our necks. We smell death too often, for the remains of hapless creatures litter the right of way. We are reminded of those who met tragedy along them where the simple markers stand with withered plastic flowers, their depleted colors representing the faded grief of those who placed them. Here in Montana the small welded flat iron crucifixes painted white stand on steel rod above the sagebrush; single, double, triple. Presumably each denotes the body count of the event, and it is hard to imagine how so many die on perfectly flat, straight roads. Speed. alcohol, snow, complacency; all are culprit and witness to the murders.
I continued from this scene to find the entrails of car and beast in my path. I passed the car, glancing over at the relatively slight damage to it, angry at the driver. He was no more to blame than I, for he was practicing due diligence in paying attention to me and the cyclists in front of me. The deer was disadvantaged by that, and the fact they tend to blend with the environment- at least until they suddenly appear in front of you. I caught up with Arron, riding maybe 7 miles per hour, head down, blankly staring down the road. "Did that happen directly in front of you?" I asked. "Yeah." he replied. "Are you okay?" "Yeah," he lied.
Arron is 18 and new to the ride, having just met up with us during our stop in Billings. He is from Long Island, and just graduated high school, headed to college this fall. I felt a kinship to him upon meeting, and asked him over dinner one night if he was familiar with the
MBTI. "Yes," he said, "I'm
INFP." I informed him I was too, and we were pleased. Essentially this simply indicates we have distinct similarities in how we perceive the world, and empathy is a strong trait. We have difficulty witnessing suffering, and are best suited to aid others in dealing with it. Many clergy, nurses, counselors- idealists and healers, are of this type. That's how I knew he wasn't alright with what he just saw, because I wasn't. In my teen years I lived in a rural community, brought up by a father that took it upon himself to prepare his sons for the reality of war he experienced, so marksmanship practiced through hunting, indiscriminate slaughtering, and such were our lessons. Though quite familiar with blood sport I have long ago abandoned it, for it goes against my nature. I can imagine the horror witnessed by this young urbanite.
The macabre scene I witnessed played in my head, so I thought it best if I distracted him from his. "So, have you done any drafting?" I asked, in reference to a question he asked from reading my blog. "No" was his answer, once I made myself clear, for the wind made conversation below yelling difficult. We were going slow against this headwind, so I thought he could use some help from me blocking it, and it was an ideal time for him to practice. "Get close to my wheel, but never bump or cross it, or you'll go down. I'm going to keep a steady cadence. If I shift two gears higher that indicates I am about to get out of the saddle and stand on my pedals, so be prepared for a change in rhythm. Practice not braking, and keeping cadence. In a draft line you never stop pedaling to rest- it throws riders behind you off. Pedal even if there is no real effort."
We continued, slowly increasing speed as he practiced. Drafting isn't particularly easy, for it takes concentration when learning, and when with a rider or group you aren't familiar with. It can be tense, causing pain in the hands, arms, and shoulders. Over time and with familiar riders it becomes second nature, for you learn to "read" their movements and can anticipate subtle changes so to not react drastically. It can be very exciting, for well executed it results in greater speeds and appears quite graceful as the head riders switch off their front position, falling off to the rear to rest as the next rider takes the pull. Anyone who performs this maneuver has a story of how it resulted in some kind of wreck and road-rash, and nobody is immune, no matter their expertise. Arron will be an excellent, powerful rider soon, better for today's incident- an experience he'll be able to use helping another. He'll be okay.